EdgeKrusher
Member
****! I don't even know why I'm posting this.
I've been having Crazy thoughts over past couple of weeks. I look at my aquarium and can't seem to find the enjoyment in it that I once had. My Girlfriend has been doing all the cleaning and feedings. I don't know what's wrong with me. Maybe it's time I just give it up. I don't even know why I'm brining this up right now. I haven't been on the forums in months. I haven't done any testing of the water, I am down to one hermit crab and two snails, I don't like the way the rock work is set up, and... it seems like I'm subconciously letting it go to hell. I need a stand, but I don't know who will help me build it. I just recently read that this hobby is good for the heart, and I used to beleive that with all my heart, but I don't know what to believe any more.
I have no coraline algae, haven't tested CA or ALK, got mad nusiance algae, and don't really care. Aiptasia is taking over the tank, and I don't really care. What's wrong with me? Am I the only one who's ever gotten to this point that they look at the tank and think about ways to sabotage it to make it look like an accident so that thier significant other wouldn't suspect foul play? Isn't that a crazy thought?!
I used to be so into this, and cared so much. Maybe it's stress, maybe it's frustration, or a combinaton of the two. I can't even bring myself to take pictures of it, I'm ashamed of it, or am I ashamed of myself?
Well anyway, I'm not expecting any response to this, more of an expectaiton that it'll be deleted. Hope everyone is well. Take care.
I've been having Crazy thoughts over past couple of weeks. I look at my aquarium and can't seem to find the enjoyment in it that I once had. My Girlfriend has been doing all the cleaning and feedings. I don't know what's wrong with me. Maybe it's time I just give it up. I don't even know why I'm brining this up right now. I haven't been on the forums in months. I haven't done any testing of the water, I am down to one hermit crab and two snails, I don't like the way the rock work is set up, and... it seems like I'm subconciously letting it go to hell. I need a stand, but I don't know who will help me build it. I just recently read that this hobby is good for the heart, and I used to beleive that with all my heart, but I don't know what to believe any more.
I have no coraline algae, haven't tested CA or ALK, got mad nusiance algae, and don't really care. Aiptasia is taking over the tank, and I don't really care. What's wrong with me? Am I the only one who's ever gotten to this point that they look at the tank and think about ways to sabotage it to make it look like an accident so that thier significant other wouldn't suspect foul play? Isn't that a crazy thought?!
I used to be so into this, and cared so much. Maybe it's stress, maybe it's frustration, or a combinaton of the two. I can't even bring myself to take pictures of it, I'm ashamed of it, or am I ashamed of myself?
Well anyway, I'm not expecting any response to this, more of an expectaiton that it'll be deleted. Hope everyone is well. Take care.