eulogy (i think that is how it is spelled...) LONG!!!!

[mnreefman]

25 years together you and I,
3 days later i am still askin why,

why right now, and not then,
i imagine what your life coulda been,

the times we spent, just messing around,
remeber the 9th grade mr Jacobs called us clowns,

thoes times we had, i will never forget
or live the rest of my life, with a single regret

you taught me how to live,
you taught me how to care,

we had some great times,
just you and I,

but now there is no you,
your off to better places,

when ever i close my eyes,
i know youll be there,

trying to direct me,
or just making sure im okay,

today I celebrate your life,
for what it was to us,

i live my life today,
the way you taught it,

30 seconds at a time,
even though your last 30 seconds took your life

Chris,

my good friend may god bless your soul. we both know your off to better places, than this world could ever conjour... We were pals till the end, through my problems and yours. through my addictions and yours. through treatment sessions, and dention, we were always together, giving eatchother the moral support we both needed.

now i dont have you as my crutch, my shoulder to lean on. what am i going to do? ive woken up these past 3 days and quickly called your house but alas there is no awnser. i still expect it, and get my hopes up, that the past few days were maybe just a bad dream

i remeber our fist cigerette, our first drink, i sit back now and i just think, about all the times we had. even just sitting around with nothing to do. Having endless conversations about what we thought was nothing, these are the conversations that hold the most meaning..

you were my best friend, my pal, my hommey, my "brother from another mother". thats what we were you and i, we were brothers. there were no secrets between us. we knew everything about one another, we knew all of eachothers faults. although we never exposed these faults to other people, and when we did, it was a joke only the 2 of us got. wed laugh so hard, tears would roll down our faces, everyone in the rommm would look on in total bewilderment.

i remember how we hustled the local pool halls, and the highschool kids who thought they knew poker... we took every cent they had. i remeber driving each one to there banks so they could withdraw more money to play with.

me were chums, bums, pimps and ho's. we lived by the moment, for the moment. and that is the greatest thing i will take from our 25 yrs of me and you. the ability to live for the moment and only for that moment with NO regrets.

chris, i love you and your soul will live on through me till my parting of this earth. but i know i am not alone, youll check in from time to time. so heres one for you, added a lil honey this time. just how you like it.
R.I.P.
jan 15th 1979- feb 27th 2004

[mnreefman]

last 3 days have been reall tough, i have been keeping this inside dealing with it personally, but my best friend died fri night of what i hate to say but an overdose. as some know here i had some problems mid last year. tough time in my life, well he was my crutch my post to lean on, he is now gone.... gone to better places... i just needed to let some emotion out, thanks for hearing it

[NaH2O]

Clint!! I am so so sorry. I'll be thinking of you through this difficult time. Oh man, My deepest sympathy goes out to you!

~Nikki~

[NaH2O]

P.S. The Eulogy was very very nice - I loved it. Your personality definately shows, and I had a feel for the way you two were when together... Look out!

[Curtswearing]

Clint,

I'm soooooooo sorry. I wish it was a tank question so I could make this an easy answer like XYZ happened so you should do ABC. Unfortunately, I can't give an easy answer to you. All I can say is I'm sorry for your loss.

We want everything to make sense and and our brains are not capable of such things. My prayers are with you and your friends family.

[mnreefman]

thanks for the kind words guys.... and nikki
its hard when you see someone everyday... then after 25 yrs it stops......

[Lizbeth]

I'm sorry for your loss.

((((hugs))))

[Gina]

Clint,
I'm very sorry for your loss! It's never easy to try and come up with words to ease someones pain in a situation like this. I'm sure right now you feel very lost without him. But, I believe you are truly never totally without someone you care that deeply for. A part of them lives on in you. Even though, it may not be something you can physicaly touch , it's his sense.

There will be good and bad days to come in the days ahead. Don't be afraid to reach out to us for support!

Take Care,

[wooddood]

man clint sorry to hear.it's a rough adjustment trust me i know and have been there.keep your chin up and walk that straight line things will get better just keep it together bud.were all here for you if you need to talk or for anything.

[mnreefman]

yeah thanks guys, i hope that is a good eulogoy, last night i just started writing in a journal and i wrote 25 pages and im still not done. i called his house again this am.......... i dont know why i do that, maybe just to reconfirm everything..... anyway. i gotta gtt off to school but thanks for the toughts and prayers

[Montanareefer]

Clint you care for me don't you? See your not alone and never will be! Silent is the wind that rustles throw the trees and strong are the spirits that comfort and keep us free!

[Pro_builder]

Clint, I wish there was a way that I could make everything better for you. A loss like that is something that will take a lot of time to deal with and understand why it happened.
We wish you the best in your adventures to come. Just remember he is always with you in your heart, and will still guide you in your times of need. You just won't remeber the talks from here on out about what you should do.
Sorry for your loss. If you need someone to talk to feel free to PM me I will give you my phone #.

[mnreefman]

thanks guys... i do appreciate it... one week has gone by abd i am starting to feel aliltle better bout myself.... but only alittle.. it will come ...... thanks again for all the kind words