[Frankie]

I am sorry you are having to deal with this kinda thing buddy. I went through very similar stuff when i was a child. I want you to know that even though were not all in physical contact, we are spiritually. You are a big part of this end of life and i see you as family just as everyone else here. I am proud that you are willing to be so strong and put into words your thoughts. Not everyone can do that and they bag it. Then it festers and shapes negative thinking. You just keep on venting! If you need to talk please call. I will pm my number.