| Gina,
I am a single custodial father of my 5 year old daughter. When I first found out about her pregnancy, I tried to convince the mother to give her up for adoption. I never did want children and I do not think I want any more. However, she did not get put up for adoption, and well I started custody proceedings for the wrong reason. Anyhow, I remember the first day I held my daughter in my arms, and the tears were streaming down my face. I was shaking soo bad, I thought I would drop her. It was then that my whole outlook changed. No longer was I mad about the situation it was all about my daughter. So yes, I know how you feel. The strange part in your situation is the patience and the great amount of understanding that has to be had in order to accept whatever relationship turns out between the two of you. So even though at the time I thought it best she was given up, I now know better. So no one can fault me for what I thought! Because at that time I thought it was best for our child. Anyhow, She has changed my life, gave me direction, and shown me that I am the best dad in the world. Which brings me to my christmas wish which is already coming true. Time with my daughter. I took christmas week as vacation from my day job so I can be with her during her school break. I never knew how much I would really miss her until she started kindergarten this year. So we have swimming at the Rec Center planned. We are going to a night time lighted parade called holidazzle, and all manner of things planned! I am sooo thank ful for her, and love her with all my heart. I never knew I could be a Dad until I was. Then it became a passion. BTW tankgirl, I am a hopelessly hopeless romantic as well, and one day, I hope I will find someone who is both worthy of me as I am worthy of her. Until that time I am content in being my Daughter's dad! |